The stress of not knowing far exceeds the stress of knowing. You determine your own level of participation. If you don’t like it, you can’t have any. Where’s the oh there it is?
Like Poison for Love

She had made a practice of caring about someone, and had poured some of her energy into it daily. The love she received was like the love a spider had for its next meal. Paralyzed by poison, wrapped up and dangling in the breeze, breathless, awaiting demise. She didn’t die. Eventually the toxic effects subsided. [...]
Requiem For A Dream

RBG, Digital Painting, Elli Mayhem, 2017 By request, I have set this up on my Fine Art America for those wanting prints: https://fineartamerica.com/featured/rbg-elli-belle-dean.html?newartwork=true
Media on the Margins Classes Fall 2020

For the autumn of 2020 I am running the following courses with TAG: Media on the Margins Every other weekBegins Saturday, September 12, 2020 3:00 PM Ends Saturday, December 19, 2020 3:00 PM This course will focus upon the intersection between media and marginalization. The course format will be a series of open online collaborative [...]
Media Power

Rock, Paper, Scissors
The experience of privilege is antithetical to the development of empathy. It breeds cruelty. The experience of being on the receiving end of cruelty can go two ways: one can develop kindness or malice. Often one develops both. The malice ought to be toward the instigators of the cruelty and the kindness toward everyone else. [...]
*Citation Needed
The real sand trap of writing academically is the limiting expectation that the only ideas with any validity are the ones echoing an established precedent. That's much easier in STEM than in the humanities. Giant leaps in one catalyze giant leaps in the other, and on the humanities side this breaks the mold and can [...]
Coronavirus: Doing the Numbers in Georgia
https://youtu.be/3I5UExk4J20 This was written by my dad. He's a retired Cambridge Fellow in Physics and understands the math. Since many people find a wall of text and numbers difficult, I've made this infographic video visualizing the data. I hope it helps people get a grasp of the numbers. Isolate yourself and wash ya hands. Stay [...]
Fan-Girling Jello

"Jello Biafra" by Libertinus is licensed under CC BY-SA 2.0 In the fall of 1987, I was a senior in high school in Vestal NY, where I had just moved from Athens, GA. I had been waxing punk for a couple of years but it was then after moving that I began to discover American west coast punk bands like X, Fear, and the Dead Kennedys. In my senior public speaking class, a debate was assigned, and we were paired off and given a topic. My partner and I were assigned the then-recent subject of parental warning stickers on music. I took the position of arguing against this, having followed the whole thing in the [...]
The Chumbawamba Mixtape

Written by Elli Belle Mayhem This is about a band called Chumbawamba. They were around from 1982 – 2012.Many people have a variety of opinions about this group, both positive and negative.That is not what this story is about. This is about Chumbawamba as a history lesson, and this is about Chumbawamba as artists who continually [...]